i think this is my last chance to tell how much i love you to wonder if you love me too. i want to know if you did or even do when you said you did. my heart wants me to  tell you i love you but i dont know how you would react to that and that scares me the most over everything . i dont but myself out there because i get scared someone will use that against me and hurt me badly and im scared that someone would be you. i gave you my trust and you wasted it on pitiful shit and thats when it all stopped but somehow i still love you if not love i really like you alot.  i found shit out that i could have gone my whole life without knowing and before i found this out i thought you were different from everyone else but you proved to me your just another jerk. i trusted you and you used me as your little toy and played me making me believe what was there when it really wasnt but i wish you never did that because you fucked with my feeling and now i dont think i will ever feel the same way about any one else. and that sucks but knowing  you, you probably dont care at all so i decide to say this FISH (Forget It Shit Happens)